psalm 139

"Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit? 
      to be out of Your presence? 
   If I climb to the sky, You're there! 
      If I settle on the far side of the sea, 
   even there Your hand will guide me.
   Your right hand will hold me fast
   If I flew on morning's wings 
      to the far western horizon, 
   You'd find me in a minute— 
      You're already there waiting! 
   Then I said to myself, "Oh, He even sees me in the dark! 
      At night I'm immersed in the light!" 
   It's a fact: darkness isn't dark to You; 
      night and day, darkness and light, they're all the same to You."
Psalm 139:7-10 (MSG)


i am in the process of memorizing psalm 139, and these are todays verses. its pretty obvious why they are relevant, and why they spoke so clearly to my heart.


"abby, sweet girl, trust Me. does it really matter which side of the sea You are on? I am wherever you are, no matter where you are. I wont let you out of my sight. I wont ever be a step behind you. you will always be right where I can use you. you will always be in the palm of my hand, I will never let go. I cant ever let go. My Love is far too big."


by the way, sometimes i hear lies so loud and clear- oftentimes out of nowhere. "you call yourself a missionary?" or "you really think you are even usable?". i almost always immediately recognize that they are lies and pray against them, but they pierce my heart nonetheless. i need protection from these lies. 
but even here, i am in His hands. and He will protect me. He will guide me. and that is all i could ask for.